Hi All! It's been a bit of a long while since my last blog. Clearly i have some catching up to do. :)
What inspired me to write again was a picture on my profile of a little child jumping into the leaves. Remember doing this? :) I remember just loving to step on a dead leaf & hear it crunch, or to find a green leaf & crunch off the dead edge. It's something about hearing that "crunch" that made me feel alive.
I'm sure all of us now are feeling a "crunch" & it doesn't always make us feel alive. Me, my bills are coming up & business at work is slow. I find myself "catching up" & it's not fun. I have other things i want to do, like to take flamenco dancing lessons for instance.
Things i really want to do i'm finding, are having to be put on hold. Making my chili, for example. :( For a while i was working so much, renos in my home, and just not enough time or money to do the cooking. Now i am feeling the total need to just rest. A lady by the name of Catherine Doherty founded an organization called Madonna House, and she calls this desert season "Poustinia".
There are Poustinia houses where one can go fast, rest & pray for 24 hours. I like that idea, although being separated makes me feel like quarantine. This is not so! These women live in community, and poustina is an excellent time of rest needed, not to be excluded from their community. It is their choice with the help of a spiritual director.
I wouldn't say i'm totally in a desert place, but i am finding the need to surrender. People can't control me and i can't control them. Many people care too much about me, either trying to control me for my own good, or others getting mad that i'm being controlled & not approving of the structure some of my friends provide. Oh i pray that we just may all come to a mutual understanding. Even myself when i feel i am being disciplined sometimes.
This season is great for change. Tough yes, but now i realize i don't have to be sad. I have people that are changing their lives, and i am feeling lonely. But with my faith in Christ on my side, i know i am never alone.
I can seek him in a very special chapel at my local church. I went for a lovely healing walk this afternoon. It is warm, but crisp & i feel like i'm still experiencing the summer.
I am excited to keep on with my new hobbies. I am learning Spanish & having a blast doing it! There is a Writer's Fest coming up this weekend which i hope to attend, and i am craving to make an apple pie.
Right now i have a cherry dream cake to make. Dreams in my heart, goals to follow, a spirituality to develop & cherish, and most important just to make life a bowl of cherries & see the good in change. To embrace it, not worry, and know that God will always work to keep everything together, friends, goals & life.
May we all cherish each other & our dreams more. Not to push ourselves too hard. To dream more & eat more cherries. :)