Hello All! I am a bit of a lapsed writer, or overworked person i feel yearning to write more! This is just a little post about finding peace in the midst of being overwhelmed, tired & finding your voice again.
This is also a very quiet time of the year for me at my job. I am finding some life experiences of mine have been quite painful recently, and i am learning to trust God more in my life.
Trusting God is like learning to swim, or staying afloat. He gives me the life raft but often i am so focused on what's underneath me or lies ahead of me, i can't focus on what i have now, lose my gratitude or dwell.
Sometimes pain, loss, or even just detaching to grow is so important. I'm realizing that a lot of what i think i've lost isn't, i just am stuck in my old habits, and am blocking my future, freedom, and maturity to grow in friendships.
I will just close to say i have been reading Story of a Soul by St. Therese of LIsieux. In the book she talks about her experiences at Christtmastime & how even in her early teens, she still longed to see her shoes filled with little treats. She came to realize that as a young girl, deeply wishing to serve God in a religious vocation, her feelings, emotions, and need for attention needed to be left behind with her childish ways.
I still feel that way even at 41, focusing on what i don't have, what i want, how i want relationships to turn out, etc. I'm so busy focusing on thinking i "need" that caramel macchiato, new magazine or contact with an old friend, i lose my focus on what God is showing me i need to work on now.
I have recently finished watching Louise Hay's movie "You can Heal Your Life", and i plan to watch Debbie Ford's movie "Shadow Effect", in which you can do Shadow work to improve ourselves.
May we always focus on gratitude, love others, and take care of ourselves more. By looking at ourselves with love, and letting God in, life does transform itself, and we can make the transition from caterpillar into butterfly. :)